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hey.just came hme frm amaths.the paper seemed easier than mid year but think i still gonna screw it all.haii.5 more days to my birthday.there isnt much of an atmosphere.haii.except for marche.hehh.hope it will be memorable.and next week is pauline's birthday party.icant wait for tmr.haii.jea,lingss and bev gonna watch red shoes tmr.rahh.cant go.got piano lessons.hurr.oh wells.cant say i really wanna go but nvm.missing 4 weeks of piano lessons.teacher is gonna skin me alive cos i havent practised for a LOONNNGG time.haii.
cant wait to take my grade 8 exams.oh wells.mum said my pencil case was too big.hehh.sry mum.hai.in my dream land of getting tt adidas bag.i really want it.nvm.its just all pure indulgence.wait and see if my dad wants to buy it for me.any.thinking abt the exams.i just dun have much confidence in doing well.haii.what if i faill english.i would be slaughtered by dad.haii.what am i gg to do.supposedly jea and all tot of suicide.yes.tts a solution.but it isnt a way out to the problem.i guess what pauline said was right.haii.im still scared.really scared.why did there have to have exams.just making my life miserable and now i hope and pray for the best.altenatively i can migrate but tts the last solution.cant bear to leave.probably stay in sg and live with the shame.no i cant live my life with the word RETAIN.its just not possible.no one in the yap generation has ever gone to a poly.talk abt retain.how dumb can i just get.
anw.all this misery will only end after getting back my eng papers at least.we will have to wait and see.right.anw.tmr gonna enjoy myself till next week.and theres a retreat on 1 of the marking days!rahh.why!anw.gtg.
just the way u look at me.
just the way you smile.
i like it like that