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hi blog.oh wells.not exactly in the best of moods today.now theres no one at home so shall blog for a while.hmph.yeaterday shall say was kind of sad.yesyes.knew the truth ever since AGM.knew that i wouldnt have gotten the post.vanesa deserved it more then i did.she worked hard.when yuling told me the news,felt seriously like breaking into tears.but i pretended to be strong but seriously it didnt work.tears started dripping during emaths.thank god no one found out except phravina.sighs.its just a post.why did i have to get upset over it.told phravina bout it and felt much better.then next i din want pauline to sit with me during amaths.i told phravina to tell her i was in a bad mood.k.tt din exactly work cos she got kinda angry?but sorry pauline.another time perhaps.theres many more amaths lesson till the end of the year.then phravina tried to cheer me up.haha.shes cool.she made me laugh.sitting with phravina is just putting a smile on my face everyday.thanks alot phravina.wasnt concentrating during emaths so phravina taught me how to do bearings.pretty easy.thanks once again.
when i went home.mum had to work full day so dennis was at home.he bought a new casing for my comp.pretty cool.its black.but after that.i went to do hw and i called samantha.wanted to tell her ivena gave me the initial d edison poster but asked her bout the PLC post.but she said it was confidential.i had a strong gut feeling that would not get it.but oh wells.wait till next week.but i couldnt hold it.i broke into tears once again.i didnt had to guts to continue talking and went back to my room.sam msged me but it just din work.i had to be left alone.i told antonius i couldnt continue msging me fearing i might just start to lose it.stayed in my room so that dennis wouldnt have found out i cried.gave myself a hard thought bout the posts.actually it din really matter.soon after.went to play piano so that i would feel better.i truly did.mum came home and had dinner after that.but i din feel like eating so i gave it to eugene.hmph.sry.u had to eat half of my rice.went back to my room to do amaths.then antonius msged me once again to console me.actually it wasnt tt bad.as sam said,they would still take care of me.tt really made me feel touched.it didnt really matter bout the posts after all.theres pple who did care.that made be feel really consoled in there.thanks alot.i was truly consoled.but there are justsome things tt jus didnt go right and its unconvenient to say here.whats more i alrdy got my gold award.next would be PGA.
oh wells.tmr is eugene's grad commendation.congrats kor.trust myself that i wouldnt cry when the ps results come out.seriously.im really scared.i dun knw why.its just too late.no one would have known that i did want the post bady but wasnt good enough for it.kk.i want to stop here.cant go one anymore.its really saddening.byee.