hi blog..have not updated u for the past few daes..i feel so tired now after finishing the bloody farm trips tt we went todae for sci camp..tomorrow will be lab experiments..hmph..i feel so sad on sat..arh..jus wanna cry..i did really badly..now i jus have to study harder..wats done cant be undone..damn..thou my parents din scold me..but i knew they werent happy bout the results especially my father..i knew tt i would do badly but i did not expect the result to be lyk tt..i think i did not put in my best..i dunoe..feel happy for ernica..haix..this is sadness lah..she did so well and i did so badly..she tried consoling me..but i think it did not help..felt so helpless..jus prayed to god tt he will help me to do better in my final year..i could not believe tt i would do so badly..ernica sent me a msg thru the fone..but my bro picked it up..so i did not noe wat was it..my bro onli told me tt there was something like "i am sorry"..if tt was the case..ernica..u did not have to apologise..it was the marks u get for studying soo hard..i dunnoe..if i was to go to a different class from you..i dunnoe wat is gonna happen..actually i cried..i did not noe why..watever results i got was the amount of effort i put in..thou i did well in english and history but the rest was done so badly i have nothing to sae..i dunnoe..newaes..i got to work doubly hard..and i feel guilty cos i made my parents upset..this is so bad i jus have no comments..somemore the dae b4 i spent so much money buying a new bag, and clothes..i think i jus let my mom down greatly..mayb it was jus predestined to get this type of results..i dunnoe..fell ill during the exams and had a minor migraine..OF ALL TIMES WHY DURING THE EXAMS!!!!do i deserve it..and i feel so weak..during the exams..i dunnoe why..i suppose its the thalesemia(however you spell tt)..doctor said tt i have to eat food with more iron..and of all pple why did i have to be born with this blooody sickness..newae..i have no one to blame but myself..dunnoe wat is rong with me..haix..jus feel lyk hibernating in a corner and crying my lungs out..i dunnoe lah..i think the onli thing i am blessed is tt god gave me a best friend ernica to be by my side alwaes and also my family..i should thank god for tt..i noe mani pple are more unfortunate then me..i should be contented with wat i have in life..this is all..i dun wanna sae nemore..mayb pple other than ernica who dun really noe me..after this post u wun really expect me to be someone like this rite??on the surface..i may look like someone who is happy,cheerful..but mayb inside..i am jus awful..i really dunnoe..newae..gtg..pple tC..**muah!**
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